"Some of us are really born to die" from Marilyn Manson's, "Valentine's Day"
i must be sleeping...
the lesson
2003-11-05
12:39 a.m.

5 hours of sleep again.

i didnt go to poli sci. i went to rockville park. i wanted to see dear or falcons or even snakes. it was so cold, i liked it. it wasnt chilly cold either, it was the humid cold, the kind that bites your skin, the best kind of cold. i walked around for 45 minutes. i went to the pond/lake thing. anyway, i walked around it and under some power lines. i didnt know it, but those powerlines roar with power. i realize only now that that is the cost i pay for being able to use this diary service. i must shatter the would be silence of that peaceful lake.

i'm a member of the green party. and as i walked under the thundering powerlines, i realized what man has done to this place. what i have done. i ruined that lake. instead of hearing the sounds of the wind gliding over the water, and birds sining, i heard a groaning hum.

i learned two lessons from my trip to Rockville. everything i do has a repercussion on the world and somethings are better enjoyed alone.

went to Safeway to buy an apple. golden delicious to be exact.

went to school. english was cool, we get to watch a movie based on "Where are you going, Where have you been" by Joyce Carol Oats. i forgot what the movie is called, but we didnt get to start it today, maybe thats why i dont know what it is called... history was cool. i was talking to Melanie about the next test and about the notes. i almost started laughing because she takes the class far too seriously.

after school i went to the Bagel Club. they didnt have my favorite bagels, the sun dried tomato ones. and worse, they didnt have plastic bags either! but, they made up for all of this with fresh bagels. so fresh they were still warm. i cant even begin to describe how good the "everything on it" bagel was. it was the best thing i ate today.

then i went to Raley's. i helped some old lady get stuff because she was confined to a wheel chair thing. got some cream cheese, or rather the Nuefachatel cheese. for the bagels.

get home. do something... maybe eat, i dunno. i took a nap in the afternoon. then went to school early. i had my Anthropology midterm tonight. i think i did alright. i dunno though. i really needed to do well on that test.

i got home and went online after that. talked to Sal, Jennie, Jessie, Jeff. nothing new i guess. same old, only older.

i have to get up at 9 tomorrow and its already about 1. so, i wont bother trying to find the lyrics to "Hurt" by Nine Inch Nails, instead just pretend its right here.

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I remember falling
I remember marching
Like a one man army
Through the blaze
I remember coughing
I believe in something
I don't wanna remember falling
For their lies