Death452: hey Karen
SonicYouthxKx: hello
Death452: i'm sorry i didnt get a chance to respond to you last night
Death452: i was with wayne and selina
SonicYouthxKx: its okay
Death452: so, how are you doing?
SonicYouthxKx: not too well but ill be ok
Death452: whats wrong?
SonicYouthxKx: a lot of shit but ill get over it
SonicYouthxKx: whats new with u
Death452: nothing really
Death452: well, if you want to talk about it i'll listen
SonicYouthxKx: its nothing important really
SonicYouthxKx: whats going on with u and candice
Death452: i dont know
Death452: i feel really depressed about it all though
Death452: actually, i was crying not more than a few seconds before i IMed you
SonicYouthxKx: I was crying when i IMed u last night
Death452: i'm sorry i wasnt there for you Karen
SonicYouthxKx: no its okay
SonicYouthxKx: shit happens
SonicYouthxKx: how is she doing
Death452: she doesnt answer when i call her
Death452: usually
Death452: but she did answer much earlier today and she sounded so angry and disguested
Death452: she didnt say goodbye when she hung up
Death452: i dont know what i'm going to do Karen
Death452: last night i was with Wayne and Selina and Andrew and i forgot but now i remember and its, it hurts too much, and its too scary.
SonicYouthxKx: how is it that she can get over it so easily
Death452: the only way i can ever see myself moving on is if i can get Candice to tell me that she never wants to see me again and tells me that i'll never have a chance with her. i totally regret moving back here.
SonicYouthxKx: did it really not mean that much to her
Death452: its because she's a better person
SonicYouthxKx: than who
SonicYouthxKx: u?
Death452: than me of course
Death452: yes
SonicYouthxKx: thats bullshit
SonicYouthxKx: fuck that
SonicYouthxKx: whatever
Death452: thats what i believe
Death452: i want to be able to do that
Death452: when i called her tonight i wanted to ask her how to do it
SonicYouthxKx: That's not true and you know it
Death452: i wanted her advice on the subject
Death452: it is
Death452: its very true
Death452: did you know i primarily moved back because of candice?
SonicYouthxKx: what do u mean
Death452: i havent even bothered looking for another job after TRU because i cant see any reason for it. like my life was about building up to something and now its just for myself and i cant do that, i'm not worth it or strong enough to want it, if that makes any sense at all
Death452: like, when i was living with Sal.
Death452: i moved back here so i could be with Candice
Death452: only selina told me candice had a lot of relationships and i wasnt sure what to think about it all so we didnt really start going out when i moved back, in fact i wasnt really talking to her untill i got passed my own irrationalities
SonicYouthxKx: i havent talked to her in a long time
Death452: she misses you
Death452: she misses a lot of her old friends like you and Jazzmine
Death452: its hard to stay intouch though
SonicYouthxKx: yeah for a while i tried..i called her a bunch and sent her a message or comment on myspace or xanga but she never got back to me
SonicYouthxKx: i kinda figured she didn't want to tlak to me anymore because i still had a "high school" mentality
SonicYouthxKx: or something she wrote about
Death452: i never read about that
Death452: i heard you wrote a paper about me and Candice
Death452: i'd like a copy of it if that would be possible
Death452: ******@*********
Death452: i'd really like to read about it
SonicYouthxKx: I don't have a copy of it anymore
SonicYouthxKx: my professor has it
SonicYouthxKx: I wrote it while iw as at school and didnt get around to sending it to myself
SonicYouthxKx: I just printed it out and turned it in
Death452: oh
SonicYouthxKx: I'll see if i can get it back from him
SonicYouthxKx: it was for a communication ethics class
Death452: that would be nice
Death452: yeah, Selina was telling me about it
SonicYouthxKx: i wrote about the miscommunication of the situation
SonicYouthxKx: well i'm sorry to cut this short but i feel ill i am going to go lie down
Death452: okay
Death452: i hope you feel better Karen
SonicYouthxKx: if you need to vent or talk about stuff and im not here email me *******@**** whenever
Death452: okay
Death452: thank you
SonicYouthxKx: Anytime.
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