man... why do i feel like i've made a terrible mistake? fuck.

i cut my thumb while breaking a chair at home (to throw away... it was already sorta broken) and its been bleeding non stop. I've had to change the bandage 5 times now. its not really blood anymore its like a plasma or something. its making me think the cancer thing to be more and more likely. but at the same time the lump feels like its getting harder, like the flesh is condensing or something. not growing but getting smaller. i dunno. its crazy. i hope its just another infected folical. fucking sweat and hair.

Death452: i'm so stressed out Death452: i've worked 11 days in a row Death452: broke up with my girlfriend Death452: my mom is really sick Death452: the washer just broke Death452: i still have to pay for my classes Death452: i didnt get promoted at work Death452: and i dont know what to get you for a wedding present Death452: oh and to top everything off i think i might have cancer.

its totally too much to handle right now.

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